Racism Doesn’t Just Go Away

Cross posted at www.vibrantcommunities.ca

Years back, I hung out for a time most days at a Robin’s Donut Shop. I was self-employed in those days and started each morning with a coffee (Robin’s was better than Tim’s) and a read of the paper. The owners of the small shop were Maggie and Tony, a pleasant couple who had come over from Great Britain a couple years earlier.

Maggie worked long hours at the shop and Tony less though only because he had a second job as a mechanic. There were a few other regulars of course and for some reason I liked the familiarity of the place. It felt easy. Safe.

There was this one guy who was around quite a bit, a suit and tie guy, polished shoes, nary a hair on his head. Sometimes we talked. Mundane stuff really: the Oilers game – well he talked mostly; dodging potholes; and the cost of stuff. Sometimes we just read the paper.

This one time, he was reading the Journal and making lip smacks and offering throat noises that suggested he was unhappy and irritated. Being the conversation-starter that I am, I leaned toward him and said, “You seem unhappy and irritated.”

“Damn straight,” he said. He said that too loudly so that other patrons noticed and turned. It was somewhat comical I guess. Everyone went quiet and waited for what this white guy would say next.

He looked around and said, “Wh-aaaat?”

People went back to their business and he leaned toward me and whispered, “It’s those friggin’ immigrants.” He waited, still leaning, for me to say something, but I didn’t. I hoped he would go away and leave me in peace.

But racism never just goes away, does it?

“The food they make stinks,” he went on. “And they dress weird and they all talk some foreign gibberish at the mall and God knows what their religion is all about.”

I am serious. I wanted to chuckle. I actually felt the impulse swirl up from my gut and try to get out of my mouth. I held it back but unfortunately my restraint apparently couldn’t halt a feint grin, you know that small grin that typically accompanies a chuckle.

“Yeh,” he nodded. “You get it.”

“Sure do,” I said. “But…”

He didn’t wait.

I knew what came next would be coming. It always does with people like that white guy.

Llike most racists, he had no time or space for a real conversation. It was more like he was on a marketing campaign to prove immigrants to be some sort of inferior product to the one he preferred. For a moment I envisioned getting up, collecting my things, and saying, “See you, white guy,” — you know with a snarl on my lips — but I didn’t.

I felt like many of us do when seeing a bad accident or some kind of tragedy. I wanted to watch things unfold. Also, I knew would be coming next; racists are predictable. However, I was somewhat non-plussed when he slid his chair over to my table.

I kid you not. He said, “I am not a racist, but…”

Now, you know as well as I do when someone begins a sentence that way, the truth is in their denial. Like: “I respect your point of view, but…” Yeh, I know you get it.

Anyway. He said, “I am not a racist, but they come over here and take jobs away from real Canadians and they expect the rest of us to just be okay with them taking over everything.”

If there had been any chance of a real exchange between us, I would have asked questions. For sure, I would have asked what a “real” Canadian is, what “the rest of us” meant, and of course dug deeper into his proposition that immigrants were “taking over everything.”

But I didn’t. I figured any kind of challenge would have as useless as suggesting to the Head Poo-Bah of the Klux Klan that his group sign up for some diversity training.

I took a different tactic. “You might not know this,” I said, but Maggie and Tom over there are immigrants. And I am too.”

“Yeh, I figured they were but you?”

“Yep, I came up from the States and they are from England.”blogpic

What was perhaps most disconcerting was that he didn’t pause to reflect. Actually, he didn’t skip a beat.

“Well,” he laughed. “I don’t mean immigrants like you guys.”

“How come?” I looked genuinely inquisitive even though I knew the answer.

You know it, too.

Changing people like this white guy is not easy. Could be it’s impossible. But I figure, somehow, the “rest of us” have to try. We can begin with ourselves of course because, if we are honest, there is racism in everyone. It is indiscriminate, isn’t it, which is ironic, I think.

We need to get to that place where reconciliation is possible and then do what we should and must to reconcile, to make our peace with one another, and choose to honour and celebrate our humanity, in all its many colours and expressions. I fear if we don’t do that we will continue to harm one another and we will ultimately lose the fight to end poverty, which we all know is woven tight with racism and discrimination.

Today, I am so pleased and hopeful to see ending racism as one of the first game changer listed in the Edmonton plan to end poverty that so many on our Mayor’s Task Force to End Poverty, including me, worked so hard to craft. And just the other day I learned that the Edmonton Community Foundation’s board of directors voted to make stopping racism a priority for the foundation. More inspiring news.

Ending racism is about shifting attitudes and biases. It will take time for us to recognize how it permeates society and then what to do to disconnect it from our everyday lives.

The donut shop closed down a long time ago. I hope Maggie and Tony are doing well and to be honest, I hope that white guy is doing well too and that the years have softened his disdain for the differences that exist and that we need in our society.

I especially hope that because it must be awful to hate others for the colour of their skin, their “strange” customs, their foreign language, and to somehow think that some human beings are lesser human beings. At some level, one has to dislike themselves to be so hurtful and un-open to the richness of life.

As I was leaving Robin’s that day, I turned to wave at Maggie. She smiled and mouthed the words, “I am sorry” as she nodded towards that white guy. I returned the smile and shrugged. Sadly my pause to bid Maggie adieu meant I had to hear that white guy mumble, “And don’t get me started on those natives.”

I overcame the impulse that shivered through my body and walked out the door and into sunlight, the same sunlight that warms all of us, that shines for all of us, that blesses our lives each and every day, no matter who we are, no matter what we believe.

—-

Mark is the Director, Vibrant Communities. You can follow him on Twitter @mjholmgren and he still blogs at his personal site at http://www,markholmgren.com

One thought on “Racism Doesn’t Just Go Away

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s